A Ray of Light

For the past 2 years, 

I have found myself trapped inside my core, 

In what I call, the Abbyss. 

It has been a rotating wheel,

of sadness & conformity.

That cycle which keeps one from waking up,

From seeking what is good for the mind, body & soul

A flicker of a flame existed therein though,

Sustained by my spirit that never wanted to give up.

I had a dream a few weeks ago,

I was pregnant with a new life 

My partner wanted me to abort it,

And I thought in my dream, 

"I am holding on to this new life"

And just like that,

my partner in real life made that dream come true.

I have been dormant in walking towards my happiness

I have let him replace my dreams with his

Surrendered to his wants and whims

Really, all I wanted was to help him find happiness.

When I met him, he was like a fallen angel

He appeared instantly almost, at my doorstep

And I took him in, took care of him

Showered him with love and affection

But his wounds have left him heavily scarred

I could always see where his wings had been torn away

And I wanted to fix it, teach him how to walk instead

But I failed. He found the darkness in me,

peered into it and we both fell in the Abbyss.

Now he's gone, and I am alone once more

Ready for my heart to blossom again

In the dawn of Spring, 

following that path which has heart

I am filled with new inspiration 

My spirit increasing in strength and glow

Ready to allow love & joy to expand 

From flame to fire & East to West,

The Abbyss can finally rest...